I definitely felt like you didn't want to talk to me today. Well, more than a feeling, it was pretty concrete (and I swear that on my life). I felt like this yesterday too. I know. I know I'm too antsy. I didn't really give you any space at all since I left your house. And you're allowed to feel like that. It's been 7.5 hours since I sent anything to you (or you to me, for that matter). I see you're on a call now. Cool. I'll be normal about it. If you don't say goodnight to me I don't know what I'll do. I probably won't messge you in the morning, just see how long it goes on.

I wanted to cry the other day when you just didn't care about the animals I was sending you. I had felt so dispirited, so stressed, and looking at a bunch of animals I'd never seen before really made me feel better. And I wanted to share that. But I'm too much, I know. I talk too much, send too much, I never shut the fuck up. The added lukewarm reaction from my dad when I tried to show him the animals just sent me over the edge.

I understand why you asked me to do that. Like I want to respect it. But it also just makes me feel weird. Like, I already view some of your mental hangups as..just that, hangups. That should be worked on instead of encouraged. And this just feels unnecessary to me. No one was clicking on my twitter, I barely send any messages, like you're literally fine. I don't even know why it bothers me so much to remove since I'm pretty much only active in friend servers but idk. Ok.